Sundays a Tiffany's - James Patterson

Done and done! =) that didnt take long at all and it ended up being a really good book. Im glad they reprinted the pages so I was able to read the book lol (when it first came out it was those jagged edge pages...hate those) Anyways it ended up being a great book I would recommend this to anyone. Im not going to talk about it again though since I jus did like an hour ago or whatever but its a great book and people should totally read it.
No book trailers for this one though. There was one but it was lame and totally didnt do anything for the book and was actually creepy haha so heres just a picture of the book.


On to the next one. =) Im making crazy time on this book list I might have to add more to this years list...well see what happens.

Book 3 ... almost done

So I figured I would blog today about the 3rd book Ive been reading for only 3 days and Im already on chapter 58 which means Im over half way done with it. =) Its interesting reading a book about imgainary friends. This is the 2nd book that Ive read on the subject and there are similar in some ways which makes sense I guess. I think its interesting that two completely different authers write about the same subject and have basically the same idea about grown ups needing an imaginary friend. Is that even possible? Im just wondering really not that I need one but it would be interesting to just see someone that no one else can see. It will make him/her just mine! How awesome would that be? =) Does that make me a loser? haha whatever dont judge me it would be awesome and you know it.
Anyways the book Im reading now is Sundays At Tiffanys by James Patterson but if you look at the book list you already know that.
Well thats all I got today Ill update in a few days when I finish this book if it even takes that long.

Silent Scream - Karen Rose (book 2)

Silent Scream- Karen Rose

So book two is down! I LOVE THIS BOOK! I think out of all of Karen Rose's books the last book and this book were two of my favorites of hers. I always loved David in the other books so Im glad that she finally told his story. Putting David and Oliva together was genius! I love it =)And I just have to say the more I watch these book trailers the more I love them!

Half Way There!

So Im about half way through my externship (YAY Me!) I still love it. Im still really shocked at how much I love it actually I am still thinking about shelter work but less and less because Im liking this so much even with all the stupid people that we see/talk to. But I do love it though. I am learning a lot. Most of it is the same everyday with the blooddraws and exams and what not but still I learn something everyday and that is what its about to me because them deadend jobs where Im teaching everyone else stuff everyday is so boring to me. So I think I can see myself doing this for a long time (which is good since I am paying a good amount of money for this) But I do love it and that makes me super happy.

I actually havent decided if I want to go on to be a full vet yet though I should actually start putting more thought into it. I do love watching the doctors do everything that they do so I do have interest in doing it but we will see how it all plays out.
So of course weve seen a bunch of parvo cases everyone knows that because I complain about it all the time but today we saw scabbies and ear mites. I love looking at things in the microscope bugs moving around is nasty but its so interesting really. It sounds super gross but its so awesome. I actually did my "own" room today. I talked to the client which I usually just shadow the techs doing that. That was scary Im not going to lie I have to figure out all the questions Im supposed to ask. But I think for my first time I did decent. Im sure Ill get better at it the more I do it. I did also start learning how to check in clients that was interesting because it was the end of wellness clinic so it was super crazy busy so I didnt really "learn" much but Ill be back up front tomorrow for a while to actually get to check them in. Exciting! I am having so much fun. Im wondering why I waited so long to start this really. I could already be on the job and then the question of being a vet might not be so hard. I know Im not old by any means but its my age that makes me reconsider just because Im freaked out about having kids late and if Im still in school then Ill question if its the right time. I know itll happen whenever its supposed to happen for me but still.

Alright Im done for the night off to read my book =) Love ya!

wedding bells is not what I want to hear?

So Ive been thinking about weddings a lot lately and the more I think about them the more I want to get over it. I know that sounds bad but I want to be married already. We are basically married already but I feel like if we had the wedding we will be moving forward with our lives in a new direction. Ive never cared about having a big wedding I never wanted one. I always wanted a small wedding but even that is less appealing to me Im thinking we should just take a trip somewhere and get married by ourselves with noone around. ( the only reason I even wanted a small wedding would be to have pictures to share with our kids later on in life.) Then we wouldnt have to worry about spending money on crap we dont need and will just never use or need again.
There will be a lot of angry people if we didnt have a big wedding but its not about them right?
Sometimes I wonder if I have met the only man in the world not willing to have a small wedding or elope, but than again I might be the only girl in the world that doesnt want a big wedding and crap. Because everytime we have talked he wants a big wedding which I dont get at all. But Im trying to talk him down every chance I get because I really really dont want to deal with a wedding or party or any of it really. I just want to be married to him and get on with our lives. Planning a wedding for a year or whatever (with us itll be longer than that, it did take us 5.5 years to get engaged.) but I just dont want to do it all.
Those are my thoughts on all this wedding crap haha. Ill keep you guys posted on when I can work my magic and get Ted to elope with me ;)

I Can See You-Karen Rose

I Can See You - Karen Rose
So I finished the first book of my list which if you have read any of Rose's books before then you know what to expect in this book but if not, she isnt your basic romance writer her books are generally mystery with romance in the background which is why I love her writing. I love how all her books connected by the people in them. When you read one of her books a background character will be the main character in the next. Ive always been one to read a book and want to know more about the lives of a less important person in the book and she gives me that with her writings I love it.
But Ill leave it at that. When I was looking for the book cover picture to post, I actually found this instead. I think its awesome that they are making these.

“False friends are worse than open enemies”

Im sitting here listening to music and I love how it can completely change your emotions just depending on what you are listening to. Or how there is so many different kinds of music/singers that you can listen to completely different people but yet get the same feeling. Its amazing to me. I love it.
I had a bunch of stuff that I thought about today that I wanted to blog about but now that Im sitting here all I can think about is the music Ive been listening to and being so disappointed and pissed off at someone more then I thought I ever would be. I swear moving away has shown me some peoples true colors and as much as thats a good thing it still pisses me off because out of everyone I never thought it would be them to turn their back on me. And Im sure they will just say they are busy with work and they dont have time bullshit really. I know how quick you are to respond to "the important" people even now it has nothing to do with being busy. I want to say that I understand but I really dont. I havent done anything wrong. And 85% of our relationship was through text before so why would that change with me moving away? I have brought this up before about how they have stopped talking to me and they say ... thats not true ... bullshit again.
Im just tired of it and Im tired of trying and not getting anything out of my relationships. Ive lost 2 really good friends when they got girlfriends. Ive gotten one back since hes replaced her with a really awesome girl the other one I really dont care about anymore Im over it. But I just dont get it. Why are the relationships youve had before just as important as the new ones you get?
I hate feeling like this but yet it contuines to happen to me like every year by someone it like never fails. Im so sick of it. I really ready to only keep a certain amount of people in my life that I know this wont happen with. I didnt think it would happen with the ones it did but looking at everyone else I have left I think I have a pretty good idea of who would do it and who wouldnt. And if Im wrong in the long run well then Ill be done trying. I wont even try to make time for anyone that isnt in my top 5 friends which the sad part of that list is some of them I just met this year and people I wouldnt even consider being on that list Ive known more then 5-8 years. thats some bullshit really. But it is what it is right? Some people dont know what having good people in their life is worth until its too late.
People wonder why I say I hate people all the time. This is a huge reason people are terrible to each other for no reason. I havent done anything but be a good friend and be there for everyone that needed me and yet Im the one cast aside like I didnt even matter the whole time. I was just a pawn in your game of chess and now Im not longer protecting your king so I get taken off the board.
(oh you like my chess comment huh. I think Ill use that somewhere else too that was pretty awesome)
Whatever I guess Im done complaining about how shitty some of the people in my life are. This I swear will be the last one of these blogs. Im sure people are tired of hearing about this same topic from me but I cant help it...it happens all the time. Which I dont get because Im a good friend and I know people that are terrible friends/family to people and they still keep them around but yet Im the one cast aside. Whatever.

Church doesnt make you Godly or a good person

So I was driving to King Soopers to get my time sheet faxed into school and I was listening to my ipod of course and Jay Z "run this town" came on and it reminded me of this past weekend and this pastor guy who was going through all these artists and talked about how they were demanding to be worshiped and how they were showing people to go against God by simple hand signals, shirts, and lyrics. And people dont notice and do start to worship them in ways they should only worship God. At least thats what I got from him. I could be completely wrong but I just want to say I think its crap. The things he said made sense yes but for him to want you to stop listening to peoples music because of these things is ridiculous to me.
People put all this judgement on others just because they arent Christain, Mormon, Cathlic enough its all crap. God doesnt judge people and thats what he teachs you and when you sit back and say things like you arent living Godly because you listen to bad music or you cuss or dont go to church. You are doing excatly what God tells you not to do. Everyone can worship in their own way. If I choice not to go to church but still love God and read my Bible then Im living Godly enough for the pact between God and I. It might not be Godly enough for you but what is enough for you doesnt actually matter! If my pact with God is being met on both ends of our relationship then I will get into Heaven just the same as you will.
I will never understand how people say God teaches us not to pass judgement and yet you find out I havent been to church in months and Im no longer Godly in your eyes if He is teaching you to not judge and yet you go and do it, but yet Im unGodly? How is that possible?
I just want to say sorry for this rant on this. I didnt want it to turn into this but it is what it is. Im so tired of people telling me that Im not being a good Christain because I havent been to church in months. I know the promise I made to God and I know the promise he made to me and I am living up to that promise just fine and he knows that. But I defend myself here for the last time. I havent gone to church because Im looking for something to keep me interested like my old church and if its anything else then that I will op out and never go again so Id rather wait until its right for me. And if people cant understand that then I dont need you around to pass unrightful judgement on me when you have no right and if you were so Godly yourself you wouldnt be judging anyways.
Alright Im done. Sorry again for this rant but Im done with defending myself when it comes to how Christain I am and what I believe.
If you cant understand that then Ill see you in heaven when we both get there.

Its Vegas and a Wedding

So Im back! The trip was....disappointing to say the least. The wedding was great though. The days leading up to it were interesting but everything came together very nicely. Everyone did a great job at working together and making sure everything was taken care of in time. We were behind schedule the whole day but only ended up 30 minutes late. So it was a sucess! And Jazine looked beautiful and very much in love which is awesome.

Ive never had a brother before so this will be interesting. Maybe itll be like having Terry around hes the closest Ive ever had to a brother and I dont know what I would do without him. So here hoping. I couldnt give my speech because I just cant do public speaking Im terrible at it and when the DJ went to hand me the mic I broke down and started crying. Lame. But whatever. Amy read it for me which made her cry too haha. And I got a lot of compliments on it. Maybe Ill post it at the end or something.
So the weekend was disappointing because I wasnt able to see anyone that I really really was looking forward to seeing. Chris and Elvi. I was on my way to see Chris on Friday and Jazines car broke down. The clutch went out. So I had to cancel those plans. =( but he was willing to come get it but I didnt think it would be fair that I made him wait an hour and a half just to drive and get me and then drive me back to the house. Then I didnt have a car to see Elvi, Sydney and Natalia which was heartbreaking. Im having my sister drive up to Jared this week to make sure she gets Natalia's gift and the pictures I had printed off for her. So hopefully that happens soon.

Thanks to Paloma =)
Im glad I got to see my family though. =) love them

Luck Be A Lady Tonight

So Im Vegas bond on Thursday. Im getting excited to see everyone. Im not sure who all will be there to pick me up from the airport. Im kinda excited for the surpirse. Ive actually never been picked up at the airport by anyone other than Luwana so this is exciting. Its like a homecoming! haha which Ive never had before either. Dork I know. Whatever!
Ive been trying for 2 days to find out what my friends work schedule is like so I can see her and give my niece her gift (thanks Paloma, Im so excited to see it myself but more excited to give it to her.) I hope I get it in time but if not its all good Ill mail it out to her closer to her birthday since thats really what its for. But Im hoping that I get to see them I miss them a lot and Natalia is freaken talking now I totally have to see that in person. I miss that little girl like crazy.
I told Chris when Im flying in...first thing he said...do you need a ride or a place to stay? Honestly Ang and I dont mind if you stay with us. I love him! Always looking out for me. I really cant wait to see him. Its so weird to actually be excited to see him with his girlfriend without Ted because the last 3 girlfriends have all hated when we hungout together even with Ted there they all cling to him. But this time with this girl Im excited its awesome!
I know I keep talking about how excited I am to see Chris and I havent really talked about being excited about seeing my family much. But I totally am all of them! I miss them all and Im totally bummed they couldnt make it out here last month but I cant wait to see them. I dont really talk about it much because thats a given to me of course I want to see them. And I talk about Chris more because of all the crap we went through last year and how long it actually took for us to see/talk to each other and then once we actually got that all figured out I moved only a few months after that. So if it seems like Im more excited to see him more than anyone else its not really true...well maybe a little bit true but for good reason.
Geez Im so ready to get this weekend started!
So of course I have to throw in some Sinatra =) love him!

when Im unwilling to blog...for real...

Whats your name?

What are you thinking about right now?

What are you doing after this?

What are your plans this weekend?

What kind of pet do you have?

What are your dogs names?

Relationship status:

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Dive For Dreams

Dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots and wind is wind)
Trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love though the stars walk backwards)
Honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death away at a wedding)
Never mind a world
with its villians or heros
(for good likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth)
In spite of everything
which breaths and moves, since Doom
(with white longest hands
neating each crease)
Will smooth entirely our minds
-before leaving my room
I turn and (stooping through the morning)
Kiss this pillow, dear
where our heads live and were.
EE Cummings

Part of my life playlist.

I believe today will be my first music blog. I think for this one I will just list a few songs/videos (if there is one) that have made me feel something over the past years. If you know anything about me you know I live for music my ipod is truely my life saver and before that it was my very wide and crazy amount of cds that I still have and cheerish today (besides smokey and bandit those things are my babies) And Im sure this list could and will go on forever because there have been so many songs that have done something different for me throughout my life but Ill try and keep it to a minimum...but I cant make any promises ;)

First Ill start with Miranda Lambert: The house that built me. I love this song ever since we moved out of our very first house my sister and I both always wanted to go back and see what they have done to it just to see and remember the times we had there. Id seriously consider buying this house at some point just because I actually have happy memories in this house. Those are actually the only childhood memories I have that are truely happy.

Alright next on the list is Caitlin & Will: Address in the stars. This song makes me think about my grams. She died when I was in 9th grade that was a hard time in my life and one that I remember the most when I look back on my life. I miss her a lot about 2 times a year I have dreams about her still being around those dreams usually come when Im going through something really hard in life I think she gives me hope in a way when I see her in my dreams. I have another song that reminds me of her but theres no video but that one is SHeDAISY: I still run (holding out for you)

So Toby Keith: American Soldier. Well Im sure you all know why this is important to me. When Shawn died this song was blasted for months everytime it came on. I met him only a few times but I seen the loss that my family felt when he died and that impacted me so much. I also lost my adopted soldier Keith a year after Shawn was killed the same way and that was really hard I had never met him in person but he was an amazing man and soldier. They both were. I know a lot of military people and my heart and prayer go out to them everyday for the things they are giving up daily for our freedoms. These are true Heros and they deserve more credit and respect then any other profession in the world. I miss my two fallen soldiers and the millions lost in the war they are my heros.

Robin Thicke: Lost without you. Ted and I have been through a lot of stuff in the past 6 years and I think this song is true to us. We truely are completed by each other =) cheesy I know whatever dont be mad because we got it like that. (but seriously I could have picked a million songs for me and Ted and Robin Thicke stole it because I mean come on look at him. haha wrong since this one is for Ted and I? Whatever haha)

Jeremy Camp: This man. Oh how I love Jesus music it makes me happy! =) I really do miss church I loved it! But this is a song that makes me think because honestly he gave his life for our sins but would we be willing to take his place knowing what he did for us?

Okay I think Ill end with this one Brandon Heath: Give me your eyes. This was the first Christain song that I really loved. I think thats because I really always wonder what other people see when they look at the same things I do. I wonder what God sees when he looks down on us. Is he proud of us? At least some of us? Does he know where it all went wrong with the world?

Okay here is my song list for todays blog. Hope you enjoy maybe there are some songs on there that youve never heard and maybe you like them. Let me know Id love to hear what you have to say and let me know what songs are on your life list and why.

Love ya

CS

(still looking for that signature. Its my goal to have one by the end of the week.)

Unplanned lazy day today

So today I amazingly didnt wake up until 2pm wth! That never happens I usually cant sleep past 9 or 10. Its crazy to me that I slept so long I didnt even feel tired last night but then again I didnt lay down until 2 which turned into me reading for an hour and a half so maybe by the time I fell asleep I was more tired then I thought.
Anyways, Ted is home now =) I like when he was gone I had fun cleaning the house by myself which I never get to do which is why its probably super clean instead of just picked up this time. But it looks really nice. I got to go through my scrapbook stuff and packed away some of the stuff that I wont use. I am thinking about selling it but I honestly dont know what to sell it for because just in the paper alone I have at least $100 with just that but I have so much other stuff in there so I dont know I dont want to expect a crap load of money because it is used stuff (besides the paper) but there are used stickers and sissors and what not. So I dont know if I should even sell it just because I dont know what to ask for the stuff.
Next weekend is the big Vegas trip. Im so excited to see "my people" I have missed them. I am really excited to see Chris I still cant believe that we didnt talk for a whole 6 months a year ago Im so glad that he got rid of that crazy girl he was going to marry. Im so glad that he met Ang. I cant wait to see her too even though Ive only met her once she fits him perfectly which is awesome. But I was talking to him today he has been looking for our "cubs believe" bracelets for over a year now I googled it and found them in 2 mins haha he is such a loser when it comes to computer. So he has those ordered for us. Im excited about those. =) I cant wait to see Deb (hopefully) for at least coffee on Friday before dinner with Chris. Then the wedding Im still ify on that. I know that makes me a bad sister but I dont know him. But I get to see my sister, aunt and cousin which woo hoo!

Alright then Im done for today. Totally didnt stick to the "book" plan for this one but whatever at least Im blogging.
I still need a signature so Im working on that. =)
Love Ya.

Formating.

So Ive been MIA....again. Sorry about that I know I keep saying that I will blog more often and blah, I dont want to make that promise anymore I will say that I hope to blog more but if that doesnt happen I wont feel so bad about it.
One reason I have been putting off writting is because I have been trying to figure out why I am blogging in the first place I know most of it is just crap thoughts that come to mind when Im sitting in front of my computer so why not write them down. But I really want to blog about something. Have a reason to blog. I dont really have like a "bucket list" to blog about all the things that I have done with my time. Right now Im just trying to get through school/internship and start working thats about all that would be on my list right now. Boring. But with all this thinking the only thing I can honestly come up with is blogging about books I dont know if people are actually interested in the books that I read there are a lot of them. But I think that will be what most of my blogs end up being about. I will promise that sometimes there will be ranting blogs those Im good at when I actually take the time to do them. So we will go with that for now.

My whole life Ive writen poems or short stories so I figure since that is something Im used to I will start with that. Writings and readings. Im sure there will be things in there about music that is the other thing that has always been part of who I am. Also personal stuff will be thrown in there as well so people who like my yelling at people will get what they look forward to in my blogs (love you Nes =)

Alright then Im going to go now bye for now.
Oh I think I need a signature...any ideas?