“False friends are worse than open enemies”

Im sitting here listening to music and I love how it can completely change your emotions just depending on what you are listening to. Or how there is so many different kinds of music/singers that you can listen to completely different people but yet get the same feeling. Its amazing to me. I love it.
I had a bunch of stuff that I thought about today that I wanted to blog about but now that Im sitting here all I can think about is the music Ive been listening to and being so disappointed and pissed off at someone more then I thought I ever would be. I swear moving away has shown me some peoples true colors and as much as thats a good thing it still pisses me off because out of everyone I never thought it would be them to turn their back on me. And Im sure they will just say they are busy with work and they dont have time bullshit really. I know how quick you are to respond to "the important" people even now it has nothing to do with being busy. I want to say that I understand but I really dont. I havent done anything wrong. And 85% of our relationship was through text before so why would that change with me moving away? I have brought this up before about how they have stopped talking to me and they say ... thats not true ... bullshit again.
Im just tired of it and Im tired of trying and not getting anything out of my relationships. Ive lost 2 really good friends when they got girlfriends. Ive gotten one back since hes replaced her with a really awesome girl the other one I really dont care about anymore Im over it. But I just dont get it. Why are the relationships youve had before just as important as the new ones you get?
I hate feeling like this but yet it contuines to happen to me like every year by someone it like never fails. Im so sick of it. I really ready to only keep a certain amount of people in my life that I know this wont happen with. I didnt think it would happen with the ones it did but looking at everyone else I have left I think I have a pretty good idea of who would do it and who wouldnt. And if Im wrong in the long run well then Ill be done trying. I wont even try to make time for anyone that isnt in my top 5 friends which the sad part of that list is some of them I just met this year and people I wouldnt even consider being on that list Ive known more then 5-8 years. thats some bullshit really. But it is what it is right? Some people dont know what having good people in their life is worth until its too late.
People wonder why I say I hate people all the time. This is a huge reason people are terrible to each other for no reason. I havent done anything but be a good friend and be there for everyone that needed me and yet Im the one cast aside like I didnt even matter the whole time. I was just a pawn in your game of chess and now Im not longer protecting your king so I get taken off the board.
(oh you like my chess comment huh. I think Ill use that somewhere else too that was pretty awesome)
Whatever I guess Im done complaining about how shitty some of the people in my life are. This I swear will be the last one of these blogs. Im sure people are tired of hearing about this same topic from me but I cant help it...it happens all the time. Which I dont get because Im a good friend and I know people that are terrible friends/family to people and they still keep them around but yet Im the one cast aside. Whatever.