I suck at blogging - since Im like 12 days behind my photo challenge and I really have no desire to finish that at all. So Ive decided to just give it up.
I suck at being jobless - Im sure a lot of people are the same way but Im freaking out A LOT about not having a job. I get really negative about myself and I honestly dont know what I am supposed to do anymore. Ive been submitting my resume online for weeks and the same jobs Ive been submitting them to are still being advertised why am I not getting calls? Seriously.
I suck at reading my bible - I just found out today that the bible my dad got from my sister for his birthday last year in Aug he finished the whole thing by the time he past away in Nov. Seriously Ive only read like 2 "books" out of the whole thing. =/
Anyways I just feel like a failure all the time now. No job. No life. No hope(sometimes). Everyone keeps telling me uplifting things and it helps but when Im alone for any period of time my mind starts checking off all the things Im failing at in life. I keep praying and trying but nothing seems to give. I just need something positive to happen because I question EVERYTHING I do and have done in the past couple of months, like maybe I have made all the wrong choices in life and I just suck at life as a whole.
Well heres my depressing blog sorry about that. Its just how I feel right now...and everyday lately. Im sure things will get better Im just hoping for sooner rather than later.
I've totally been there. Recently even. It will get better. Just don't quit. That's what I tell myself. Even though I suck and may not be the fastest, brightest, best, whatever at least I'm doing something which is better than nothing. I will keep you in my prayers! Hugs!!
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