Am I Crazy?

Life changes. Its that simple, people change, everything changes. You just have to learn to live with the changes that happen. Im learning that this past month.
Ive made the decision that I needed to be happy for me not for anyone else but me. I cant honestly say Ive done that before. I no longer want to compromise on the important things in life and I dont ever want to ask someone to compromise on the important things in life for me. No one will be happy that way in the end.
For the first time in seven years Ive become a single woman living in Las Vegas (crap) and trying to do things on my own for once. I have never had to do things alone. Its been a bit scary and disappointing already and Im not even a week into it.
I got to Vegas on Tuesday night and fell right to sleep (its a long drive). So Wednesday I got in my car with Bandit and we were off to find a car wash. After 30-45 minutes of driving up and down the streets of the west side of town. I finally had to pull over and have a little break down moment and cried for a good 10 minutes, while asking Bandit WTF we were doing. I couldnt find a damn car wash and I was realizing I had never had to wash my car before. Ted always did that for me so I had no clue how to do it. Thats a hard realization when it all comes crashing down on you, over stupid little things like a damn car wash. I pulled myself together enough to countine my search. I finally said forget it and started to drive across town (my old side of town) where I know where all the car washes are. My sister calls and says she needs a ride home. So I said fine and on our way home you have to help me wash my car because Ive already had a melt down.
I still suck at washing the car, Im quite terrible at it actually.
The next day I went to my school and started the enrollment process. Which Im very glad I did. Damn NV laws that says Assisants cant do ANYTHING really. So to actually get anything out of my career choice I need to because Certified asap. So after the stop at school I started calling the clinics around town (same clinics I worked for in CO) and got me an interview today. Which went SUPER WELL. It was informal since I had worked with the company before and thanks to Melisa for giving me a great letter of recommedation (love her) plus the fact that Ive started the process for school it went great. She said it shouldnt be long before I hear from them. =D so that gave me a little bit of my confindance back thank gosh it wasnt looking good for me after that car wash ordeal.
Its going to be hard, but I know this is right for me. I know I have to do things on my own for once or I will always question my self-worth. So I need to figure myself out.
I really do hope I made the right decision. Only time will tell really. I know I cant ask someone to change themselves for me so in time everyone will see its for the best for everyone involoved.