Change.

People change. Things change. Every living thing goes through change. What matters is how you deal with your change. Ive had to learn this a lot over the past 2 years. Ive accepted most of the change that I personally have gone through(mostly change for the better, thats why) but when its other peoples change that effects me in some way I dont accept that very well. I know that, I admit it and it sucks but Im hard headed when it comes to those types of things. I have SERIOUS trust issues so when I do finally give you my trust I get attached...quickly. So when things change and I no longer hold the same potion in your life, I take that very hard and I have issues with accepting it. I have issues with it because it doesnt matter how much change I go through I go the extra step to make sure you are still important to me. I might fall behind a few times but usually I catch myself and fix it. I fit you into my life why cant I get the same?
Im having the hardest time even holding conversations with people back home, not because Im not trying but because when I call/text them its always one ended (my end) and it sucks. Im trying why arent you? I moved I didnt die. I find it amazing that I have more conversations/interactions with people I havent seen in 6 almost 7 years then I do with people I talked to or seen weekly while I was in vegas. What the hell. I know people change I get that but you have to allow the relationship to go with you during the change. Not just drop it like it didnt matter. Its lame and it hurts.