I think these moment days are going to be the hardest for me to write just because there are so many moments that mean something to me. I guess Ill talk about my "sad" moment first.
The day my Gram died. I remember this day so clearly! I remember begging my aunt and her friend to take me to the hospital to see her and they kept telling me in a minute...in a minute. At some point I told them Id take the bus if they werent going to take me just to let me know already so I can go. But finally they said okay. I remember my other aunt walking out of her room with the phone and she just looked beat down. She told us that my Gram had past away and I didnt get to see her one last time.
I honestly dont remember how I felt Im sure lost would be the word I would think since she was such a huge part of my life up til that point and honestly still is. I usually have dreams about her when I am going through something difficult in my life it doesnt matter how hard it is or even if its a simple fix. But after I wake up I could instantly cry if I let myself because it hits me just how much she is still there for me. The dreams I have of her are simple dreams like when I would come home from school and she would be sitting on her couch in her spot getting ready for work and she would always ask how my day was. I dont remember ever having that before or after her so that always meant so much to me. I know Ive never missed anyone the way I miss her. She was so willing to put everyone, I mean EVERYONE before herself. It didnt matter if she had nothing left to give you if you asked her shed give you her blood thats the kind of woman she was. I know she wasnt a saint but she sure did a lot for me. She taught me a lot one of those to be strong...I think from all the times she gave everything up for someone and got nothing in return, is where I learned not to give anyone crap I saw her get walked all over and I hated it and never wanted that for myself so it takes a lot for me to trust.
Alright thats all I got for my moment it ended up being more about her as a whole and not just the memont I remember but whatever. I miss her a lot =) she was my Gram and I loved her SOOoooOOOO much.
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