Can I skip this day? No really is that a possiblity? Everyone knows that Im not very fond of my parents, Ive never really gotten along with them Ive done everything possible to not be like them. When I was growing up I seen other kids lives with their parents and wish I had different ones or more responsible ones but Im sure I was given them for a reason...if that reason is anything other then to make me stronger I really dont know what it would be. But I know having them as parents has been a huge reason to why I am the way I am today. Which is very guarded and honestly uncompassionate to people that always want to be pittied. There are some days I remember my childhood and wonder why I would ever want kids because theres always that what if in the back of my mind of "what if I end up like them?" They havent always been like this right? It had to have started at some point what if I start this later in life?
Im sure people reading this that know nothing about me are wondering whats so wrong with them but the ones that know me know pretty much the situation and I dont feel right putting that all out on the internet so Ill just keep the "reasons" to myself. But I can say that I just recently saw a picture of myself for the first time under the age of 10 only because my aunt gave my sister a picture of us from our younger days as part of her wedding gift. Also everything I "know" of my childhood is stuff that I actually remember myself because I was never really told stories of myself but I could tell you every toy, moment, greatness of my older sisters childhood, because those are stories I was always told for some reason.
I used to be really bitter about all of this but Ive gotten past a lot of it. I have more important things to worry about now so its really whatever now whats done is done cant be changed now. So thats my parents story. Depressing a little bit but life sometimes is right?
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