Classic Novel one-Pride And Prejudice

The next book. I actually haven't read this book. Sadly I haven't read any of Jane Austen's books I bought like 3 of them last year but never got around to reading them so here it goes. One of the goals I set for myself. Read more classic novels. Here is book one of that list. I started yesterday and I've gotten to chapter 5 already. So far so good. I'm not sure how my newest blog series is going to work out with this book with quotes and what not but we will see. I hope to get to a point in this book that I don't want to put it down and try and finish as much as possible before Wednesday since thats when my craziness starts. Going back to CO. That will be a REALLY busy week. So not much reading will be done that week. So we shall see how it goes.
Have a good rest of your weekend my lovelies.

My thoughts.-the Christian atheist.finished

*the finished book*

I've spent the last 3 hours powering through the last few chapters of this book. It gets intense at the end. It really is an amazing eye opening book and if you ever question your faith any part of your faith you should read this book. I still have questions of course some that came to me while reading this book. I do wish I read this book while I was in Vegas so my pastor could walk me through these questions while they are still fresh. He read this book after my sister told him I wanted it for christmas. He has past it on to her to read, and I cant wait for her to read it, I want to know what questions she has about it if any. She is more involved and knowledgeable about Church and God than I am.

I now know I am a First-Line Christian. I plan to change that. I know I wont change it right now, I really do need my Church, family, and pastor to change it. I do wish I had been smart enough to pack my bible on this trip though. I really would like to get back into reading it. I've missed it. I've missed Church a lot I am so ready to get back into it.

So Ill get to it. The last quotes from the book. There are A LOT!

-Before you begin your journey toward change, brace yourself. The excuse monster is waiting in the shadows, ready to rear his ugly head:.

-If you're not dead, you're not done. God still has something important for you to do. These truths alone make you important. You can change.

-The apostle Paul said, "Do not be misled:'Bad company corrupts good character'"

-You can't change in your own power. If you feel overwhelmed by something bigger than you, let the one who is bigger than all things be the power you need in your weakness.

-But when the night sets in, I stare at the ceiling, feeling alone, afraid to trust God completely. If I can be truly honest, I am often overwhelmed with worry.

-Matthew 6:27 asks a practical question: "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his ife?" I wonder how many hours worry has shaved off the end of my life? (Now I'm really worried.)

-If you do catch yourself worrying even after you've done what was wise, remember that God is bigger than our problems, and that he wants us to hand them over to him. Worry then becomes a signal alerting us that it's time to pray. Any time you hear the alarm start to blear, stop. It's time to stop worrying and start praying.

-Sometimes God's response to prayer may take longer than you want. Second Peter 3:8-9 says, "With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness."

-Can your worry change anything? No. Can God change anything? Absolutely he can. Do what God tells you to. Give everything you cannot do to God.

-"When you have proven faithful with little, I will trust you with much."

-Our actions confirm that a disturbing number of us truly believe this equation: better possessions+peaceful circumstances+thrilling experiences+the right relationships+the perfect appearance=happiness.

-Instead of seeking to serve one another, we wrongly believe that there's one person out there who exists solely to make us happy.

-God hates it when we pass up on the real life and settle for the false promises of this world.

-We are strangers, aliens, foreiners on earth. We are made to dwell forever with our Lord in heaven. Phil. 3:20 We will never discover lasting happiness in the temporary things of this world because we weren't made to live a temporary life.
That's why we should lower our expectations of this place. Earth is not heaven. Thats why no amount of money, new house, new furniture, new kitchen appliances, new clothes, new hair, new baby, new vacation, new job, new income, new husband, or new anything will ever satisfy us, because we were not made for the things of this world.

-Why is it that those who have so little often seem to have so much? And why do those with so much seems to have so little that really matters?

-The apostle Peter says, "Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have"

-However you normally communicate, you can naturally weave in your own story.

-When you serve others in Christ's name, with no strings attached, people will notice something is different about you.

-Faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ."
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says."

-When he chose friends, Jesus surrounded himself with the lonely, the broken, and the overlooked. God is calling you to be a part of his church, to be his church. If you dont feel like you're good enough, then you're exactly who he's looking for.



So there is the lastest book. =) I loved it. If you read it I hope you love it, let me know if you do read it Id love to hear your thoughts on it. On to the next...

Heres My Moment For Them

I was looking for new music and found this song by P!nk Fuckin Perfect. This song is amazing!

I honestly dont understand the point in bullying people. I never got bullied, sure I've been talked about and hated for stupid reasons and reasons I dont understand. I've been called names all kinds of names but I was never bullied I dont think so anyways. But Ive seen my fair share of kids that were bullied I have had friends be bullied and who commited suicide because they thought that was the only way out of the pain. I wish I had told them they were perfect to me and could have made them believe that enough to not do it but I didnt. And Im sure I didnt try enough because I was to busy or didnt think it was that serious. For that I am sorry.

I just thought Id take a moment and remember the people Ive know that 'had no way out'

I miss them. I wonder where they would be today had people (including me) been nicer and actually been there for them.

Heres my moment to them.

So still no idea for what to call this....

I really need a title for these quote blogs. I dont want it to just say Quote Blog. Lets see if as Im writing this if I can come up with something.

*heres the book so far with all my markers*

-God's love is different. God's love is permanent and unchanging. Jeremiah 31:3 describes it this way:God said, "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness." While others may love you today and abandon you tomorrow, God's love never changes. And because of that, you will always be a valuable, significant individual.
-Guess what? You are that one! God loves you so much that he's searching the wild, dark night to save you. He's moving all his furniture and tearing up the carpet simply to reach you. God is watching every moment of every day, waiting for you to return home, and when you're yet only a dot on the horizon, he'll sprint toward you, his arms flung wide and a joyous grin lighting his face.
-"I can't believe what I'm hearing. Right in front of me is a bar owner who believes in the power of prayer and a pastor who doesn't"
-Pray about whatever is on your mind. When you find out your grandfather has cancer, pray that God would heal him. If your boss drives you crazy, talk to God about her. If you have headaches, tell God when it hurts. If your marriage is in bad shape, ask God to help. If you are considering replacing an older car, ask God for wisdom. Before starting on your term paper pray for direction.
-Here are Jesus' instructions: "When you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full...And when you pray, do not keep on babbline like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words"(Matt 6:5, 7)
-The prayers of godly people recorded in Scripture are examples of straightforward honesty.
-The acronym PUSH has been helpful to me. It stands for "pray until something happens."
-God speaks in many ways. He can speak inaudibly by his Spirit to our spirites. He can speak through people, circumstances, nature, and through his written Word.
-Sometimes in our prayer times, God's "voice" will bless us similarly. He'll prompt us, guide us, and comfort us. He's speaking. Let's listen.
-If good pray is so simple, why doesn't God seem to answer more prayers?
-Unanswered prayer reminds me that prayer isn't a magic formula where we do X and Y and God is obligated to do Z. Prayer is, instead, a mysterious conversation with God.
-The root of bitterness grows in the soil of hurt that has not been dealt with properly.
-Jesus teaches us to "bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."
-I simply prayed a grudging but obedient three-second prayer: "God, I pray you work in his life."

Alright, there they are this edition of the quotes. I'm about half way through this book I am really hoping to have this finished by the time I leave ND. So I'll get back to reading I guess lol or Ill fill my new addiction to Dexter. We'll see how I feel when I log on the computer. ;)

Hello From ND week 1 down.

So its been a few days since my last blog. Only because it didnt save and I was to mad to sit and retype out the blog. So Ive taken a few days to cool off and so here I am cooled off and ready to blog again. =)
Ive been in ND for 10 days now. I am really bummed that I havent really found anything to take pictures of since EVERYTHING is covered in dirty snow. (which Im not a fan of.) Well Ted had a day off yesterday so we went to the movies and watched I Am Number Four. It was pretty good very Jumper like to me but it was alright. I didnt understand the end so much if they had one why couldnt they take the other? Anyways moving on. We also went shopping :) honestly it was snowing 1' an hour people! and windy so I didnt want to leave the warm mall who had a bunch of sales going on. So I got jeans $3 two shirts $10(total) skirt $2 heck yes Im super proud of that. I also spend way more on a purse that I am surely IN LOVE WITH I think since I spent so much on it it should be buried with me I love it that much.
Hey good news...I layed on my stomach today! You better believe it suckers. Less than a week after and I laid on my stomach Im sure it wont happen to much they are still a little sore more itchy than anything but still.
Alright Ill say good bye from ND on this blog. Ill be working on my next Quote blog shortly.
Have a good night. Lovelies

1st and 2nd day of ND

I left CO on Saturday morning. Met some pretty funny guys in the security line who talked about golf but I got them to talk about baseball instead so that way I could actually hold the conversation. It was pretty awesome. Usually after check in I put my headphones in and dont pay attention to anyone around me but this time I just wanted to get through the line. So Im glad I didnt and met them they made me laugh. So I landed in ND in the afternoon. I do have to say that, the poor flight attendant looked so bored all alone in the flight. I wanted to talk to her just so she wouldnt be sitting alone the whole time lol.
Anyways, so far Dickenson is a pretty nice town. Yesterday we went to the mall and got me a super warm jacket =) we went to the movie theater which only has 3 movies playing. So we watched Just Go With It. HILARIOUS! Then dinner. Today we got up early and went to Bismark the capital. We went again to the mall =) and got me some new shoes (yay) and new earrings. Then dinner at the Alien Bar. That was a cute little place. Completely for kids but they have a bar (yay). Tomorrow the search is on for a piercing place. We looked for some today but being Sunday and all they were closed. So tomorrow is the plan (woohoo)
Its totally time for me to go to bed. Here are some pictures so far on my trip. Oh and I took my camera out to get a picture of this HUGE cow on a hill but my button was broken off. I seriously think that my heart stopped for a minute or two. Thats heart breaking to know my camera is out of commision and no sign of getting a new one. So we will see what happens. I wasnt planning on saving for a camera for at least a year but now it looks like the saving starts now. =/
Alright back to the pictures.

Quotes from the old book.

What is this? 2 posts in the same week...oh these goals are so mine =)

Anyways the reason for this post is I've been trying to figure out what to do with the book I read about Katharine Hepburn since I have....

...all these tabs of quotes, movies, and basically anything that I wanted to remember. I didnt know what to do with them. I dont really want to put this book away with all these tabs and I dont keep a journal or diary so heres where my blog is going to come in hand. =)
I have started it with the new book Im reading and I kinda like the idea. To put them all on my blog somewhere. It saves them for me and gives everyone a little taste of the book instead of me just telling you without telling you about it. If you dont like it...well its my blog and you dont have to read it right? So here we go.

-Listen to the song of life. (I plan on painting a sign for my house someday, that says this.)
-First, dont take life or its happenings too seriously. Lift up the corners of that mouth that I gave you one moonlight night. Second, try to do one thing well-utilizing the experience of all preccding life and your own wit. Third, never let yourself hate any person. it is the most devastating weapon of ones enemies. (I wish I got this kind of advice from my dad, or just anyone in my life instead of having to figure it out on my own.)
-...She was the living anarchy of love,
She was the unexplained, the end of love,
The one who occupies the dreamy self,
The one appearance in the finite world Which is seen by us one time,
And then despaired Beyound romantic comfort afterwards.
She was my nourishment, my sister, and my child, My lust, my liberty, my discipline,
And she laid fair, awkward hands upon my head.
She was discourteous as life and death
And kindly as a dry white wine is kind
On a blowzy summer day.
In praise or blame, my voice drowns in my blood, I cannot speak, I could not speak before,
Although I knew love fattes on smooth words,
I could not speak at all.
For beyound space she was my quality, She was the very mask of my desire...
~The Daughters of the Sun," by Phelps Putnam
-Before the women began dropping any pretense to virginity into the gutter. With a disregard for truth whic is indeed pathetic. And unisex was born. The hair grew long and the pride grew short. And we were off to the anti-hero and -heroine. John Wayne survived all this.
-Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get-only what you are expecting to give-which is everything. What you will receive in return varies. But it really has no connection with what you give. You give because you love and you cannot help giving.
-There is an enormous difference between love and like. Usually we use the word "love" when we really mean like. I think that very few people ever mean love. I think that like is a much easier relationship. It is based on sense. A blind spot-love.
-One builds one's own jail. I never knew him, I think. And he is the only one who ever knew me-who was onto me. I think I was a confort to him. I hope. Dear Friend.

Recipe for currant cake-seriously this is in the book, who wants to try and make this and tell me how it is? Howard Hughes used to have this made for her for their picnics.
1lb or 3 1/4 cups self rising flour
3/4 lbs margarine
1 3/4 cups black currants
1 cup granulated sugar
2 eggs mixed with a little milk
1 tablespoon brown sugar
Rub margarine into flour. Add dry ingredients. Add eggs and milk. Mix. Place in cake tin lined with greased wax paper. Sprinkle top of cake with brown sugar. Place in top of oven at 400 degrees for 15 minutes. Reduce heat to 325 degrees and bake for another 1 3/4 hours

This list is really just for me. But if you want to check any of them please do and let me know what you think. I love old movies and I love K.H. (hints the reason I read her book) but I want to watch all her movies and own them at some point. So thats why the list is here.
Movies:
Break of Hearts, Sylvia Scarlett, A Woman Rebels, Quality Street. Alice Adams, Stage Door, Bringing Up Baby, Holiday. Mary of Scotland, The Philadelphia Story, The African Queen, Summertime, Long Day's Journey into Night, The Lion in Winter, Rooster Cogburn.
Movies with S.T.:
Woman of the Year, Keeper of the Flame, Without Love, The Sea of Grass, State of the Union, Adam's Rib, Pat and Mike, The Desk Set, Guess Who's Coming To Dinner

I've been trying to pack since my mom left which was the 31st. I've been completely slacking on that. I think thats because as much as Im looking forward to being around my friends/family in Vegas I'm also not looking forward to leaving my friends/family here, and honestly if it werent for the people who would want to leave CO for NV? But I got FOUR DAYS. 4 Days! Did you hear? Its been over a month. Actually closer to 2 months now since I seen Ted. How is that possible that time has gone by that fast? Hopefully my year of school goes this quickly. So thats right after 2 months Saturday Im leaving on a jet plane, dont know when Ill be back again. (Actually the only thing relatable from that song is my leaving on a plane part...maybe that wasnt the best song lyric to use?) Oh well. But anyways the plan is 3 weeks people. 3 WHOLE weeks of time with Ted Im excited. He will be working 2 of those weeks so its uncertain how much time there actually will be spent with him but when hes home I wont be sleeping alone YAY which in turn means maybe...just maybe I wont wake up at midnight and be unhappily awake for 4 hours. My fingers are crossed for that because that = no.fun.at.all. Guess what happens when Im in FREEZING, did I mention every time I talk to him its -double digits? Yea! Can you say never.leaving.the.room? N.DAKOTA, anyways back to what happens while Im there. I will be searching and searching until I find a place to get my nipples pierced. Im so sure some of you dont care about this little tid bit of info but Im so excited to finally get this done. Its going to be awesome. Ive been wanting to have this done for a few months it was supposed to be my birthday present but he wasnt home for that so now its so happening.
So 3 weeks of N.Dakota then we will be driving back the first week of March for car shopping (another thing Im so looking forward to), Jasmines baby shower, then the big move.
Moving on. Im setting some goals for myself this year.
-Get accepted to Tech School. After talking to the lady on the phone I have all the requirements so heres hoping.
-Read more classic novels. I read so many books but I tend to skip the classics.
-Plan our wedding. I want to be a "married couple" before we buy our next house. Which will be after school.
-Handle school and a clinic/shelter job and possibly another job in Vegas
-Blog more often. Really this time.

Ill leave you with some pictures =)

My lovelies Bren and Laurie. I will miss them

The Banfield Gang-my goodbye dinner =)

The valentines I bought Walmart $3 heck yes!

The classic books Ill be reading this year. More to be added later.

LoVe

Thats right bitches...nothing beats Rock

Mom and I at an imax movie

Jasmines baby shower invites I made her =)

My Smokey

quotes from the new book.

So I started reading this book The Christian Atheist a few days ago. So far its an awesome book everything he talks about I've felt during this path to God I've been on over the past 2 years. I'm very much looking forward to getting back to Church when I go to Vegas. But so far I'm about 4 chapters into this book but I wanted to share some of the quotes so far. I have no doubt that there be some added during the course of this book =)

-- "No disrespect meant, but Christians are the weakest people alive. They use Christianity as a crutch to avoid the real world. And the more vocal they are about their religion, the more hypocritical they are." -- I can't tell you how many times I have thought almost this exact thing, before my path to God started. Since I started going to church and reading my bible I have learn its not completely true...for the most part anyways. Some its completely true. Ive actually blog about it before.
-- "I know my life doesn't look like a Christian's life should look, but I do believe in God" --umm YES!
-- "Kneeling on the grass, I heard a voice. It wasn't audible-it was actually way too loud to be audible, too present inside me. "Without me, you have nothing. With me, you have everything." I knelt and prayed the shortest, most power-packed, faith-filled prayer of my life. Not so much whispering as mouthing the words, I said to God, "Take my life."-- powerful be on belief, it makes me smile.
--"Countless well-intentioned people believe in God but don't know him personally. Many of us look the part. Or we think we're Christians because, you know, it's not like we're Baddhists. We believe in God, but our lives don't reflect who he really is."-- I have no words...
--"O God, you are my God." You're not somebody else's God, that I've just heard about. You're my God.--yep still speechless.
--"When our past pain becomes our present identity, the shame cycle has claimed yet another victim. Like a child who repeatedly picks at a scab, many hurt people live a life of unhealed pain."--I think this one means the most and hit me the hardest just because its completely true. how many people can say they dont live in the past in past hurt at some point in their life and let it effect their todays? no one thats who.
--"For many, it is difficult to accept that the past has passed. Sometimes, it's so hard just to leave it there, where it belongs. But until we do, we cannot make peace with the present or walk into the future with hope."--and there it is a slap in the face. let the past be the past. I need to work on this some times.

So there they are so far. This book already has more little arrow stickys then my Hepburn book I just read. =)
Alright good night my lovely friends. Have a good night.