So. There. It. Is.

Im awake so why not blog? I went to bed about 10pm sound asleep dreaming about something random and crazy and at about 12am I pop awake, wide awake, I moved half an inch to realize I feel like Ive been kicked in the back. Man handling a 70lb dog is not fun while its happening and really isnt fun after the day is done. But Im sure it'll be fine soon. Now if only I could fix this non-sleeping thing I have going on. I've been going to sleep normally but always waking up around 12 or 1am to be stuck awake for a few hour then fall back to sleep. IM.NOT.A.FAN. I can do with minimal sleep I can do great on 2 hours of sleep but not interrupted sleep thats not good. And its interrupted for no reason. I woke up before I got the text or the text is sitting there for hours or there is no text. I dont know what my mind is thinking it's missing but it better figure it out and get over it FAST!
Anyways lets move on from my non-sleep life and on to my awake life.
So as most of you know Ive been trying to decide my next LIFE decision (they suck fyi) but after MUCH MUCH MUCH thought and conversations with Ted it has been figured out.
And Drumroll Please.....
Vegas Bond I Am!...did you hear that? VEGAS HERE I COME. I of course told my boss yesterday. Which is why I am free to blog about it. So thats the news. Some people know, not a lot of people but some and now everyone does. Its the most logical decision to be made really. I can't continue school here or N. Dakota without starting all over again. CO. Springs was NEVER really an option. I will be leaving work most likely the day my mom gets here January 27th. Ted will be down for the weekend =) YAY then my mom will leave around the 31st. Ted and I will drive back to N. Dakota for anywhere between 2 weeks and a month (thats not decided yet). While Im in N. Dakota I will be checking out the colleges up there, so the Vegas plans might change (Ill be happy with either one as long as Im not alone and enrolled in school somewhere). But if they don't, then Ted will drive me back we'll go to Jasmines baby shower. Well figure out if Ted will drive to Vegas with me or I'll be making my first out of state drive alone :(I vote not on that one. But if it just wont work out for him to come Ill pull up my big girl pants and make the drive alone. Im sure with lots of rest stops. So we will see what happens then. Plus side to Vegas? Ted will come visit me on his weeks off. =)
I would love to stay here I really would. Its closer to Ted which is a huge plus but I waited 6 years to actually continue my education and I have no reason to stop now. I mean Ill make more money. Work places wont be as limited. I would stay if I made more money here and could guarantee that I would learn EVERYTHING thats on the Tech test in two years well enough to be able to pass it. But I know not every clinic sees the same things and the test is so wide spread I have no doubt I wouldn't learn certain things, and I dont want to half ass it by waiting to see and then finding out I was right and then having to go to school at 28years old, when now is as good as any time for me to go. I will miss my co-workers. They have been great teachers to me which I appreciate very much. Hopefully before I go we can all get some drinks or something. And when I come back to CO I'll visit them =) I will also miss my family here. Teds parents have always been great to us helping with everything we ever needed. I am glad I got to spend my holidays with them and Teds grandma and cousin. I'll miss them. I do wish while Ted was here that we spent more time down there even if it was to just take Audrey to the movies or something. I think that would have been nice. It'll be a plan that when Im back we will do that for sure and if he isn't in town I'll do it myself. I of course will miss my "other family" my girls from school. I love those girls they are fabulous girls I wish I lived closer during this past year so we coud have seen each other more often. But remember Ill be back in no time and I know where most of you live so if we lose touch I WILL show up at your doors when I get back. Thats a promise. Plus I'm sure I'll be here to visit...and considering I just found out today...well yesterday that Jason Aldean will be at the Cheyenne Frontier Days in July, that just might be a time to come visit. ;) so well see if I can make that happen.
There is my big Life News. Very big life news really. I am pretty bummed about leaving CO I freaken love this place and I sure have met some FABULOUS people that I will dearly miss. But its only a year and four months. Not to long once graduation is done. Ill be packed and on my way back.
Alright being 4am and knowing me Ill be up by 8am damn not being able to sleep in. I should try to get some sleep even if its only 4 hours or so. Good night. Sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite. Seriously though...dont let them bite those suckers are nasty. Have you ever seen one up close? Just nasty really. Anyways for real. Good night.

Wordless Wednesday

First Christmas

My Colorado Christmas. It was a good day really it was. I was with family and not alone which is good. But I didnt have my traditional christmas. Which is lasagna dinner with my family gift exchange and loads of laughs and of course wine. Lots of wine.
Last year Ted and I went to the movies on Christmas morning with my aunt and cousin that was a start of a new tradition. This year I got to go to the movies with a cousin and a very good friend who I love! So that was good that I got to carry on that new tradition. After that I went back to Teds grandmas house had dinner and we opened one gift on Christmas Eve (I've never understood that tradition) we didnt really do that when we were younger because its Jazines birthday so gift opening was all for her that day really. But then I talked to Ted for a few hours. I love when we are able to do that. =) So I was asleep by 1am woke up at about 5:30am, everyone else was up by 6:30am. We opened presents at 7am. The rest of the day was spent sitting in a chair reading a book. I pretty much tried to keep to myself for most of the day just because I honestly wasnt sure if at some point I would think of something and break down. Im pretty emotional due to the holiday without my "normals" and the fact that I have a phone I dont want to bother giving people the number to because its not my number. So I wasnt able to talk to my best friend today which Im sure Ill hear about whenever this phone stuff gets figured out. I didnt get to talk to anyone I usually have contact with today so that sucks. Finally I texted my sister and got to talk to her a bit that made me happy. Of course texting Ted during the day was a big help. Also I had a really good conversation with my mom. Shes coming to see me next month. Im really excited about that. I am so ready to have a close relationship with her. I know it should have happened a long time ago but now is a chance to start that...really. So she will be here a weekend next month. Woo hoo.
So here I am back home laying in bed with my babies. I missed them over the night. (yes I am a dork like that) But they are my comforts right now.
I hope everyone had a fabulous Christmas. And if you texted me and got no response Im sorry first thing in the morning Ill be down at verizon trying to get this number thing figured out.
Also I want to say...I didnt hate today like it might seem. It was a great day Im very thankful for everyone I got to spend the day with (today and yesterday) I was just out of my comfort zone a little bit and I of course am a lot bummed about that. But it was a good day.

2010 was a good year

I havent blogged since Dec. 8?? Where the crap did this month go...really? No, where did the whole year go? I cant believe the whole year is over! A lot has happened this year though.
-We moved outta Vegas
-Ive started and finished school
-Got a new job in my new field
-Ted got a new job in his new field
-Ted moved to North Dakota(not officially but close enough)
-We turned 25
See a lot has happened. Its crazy to think back over a year that has had so much happen. Im happy about everything its been a sucessful year for both of us which is so awesome.
But maybe next year Ill be better at blogging, and actually finishing my book list. I know I finished a lot of them and added more to the original list but thats okay. Ill have to reformat my blog for next year maybe Ill start that soon, but I wouldnt count on that.

Wordless Wednesday

What do you believe?

Awe, the death penalty. Either you don't believe in it or you do. I do. I think if you are spending your life in jail you should be put to death. There is no reason for you to sit in a jail cell all your life and waste tax payers money. I think if youve murdered, raped, did ANYTHING to harm a child, You. Should. Be. Put. To. Death. You should be able to appeal your case in 5 years and if its denied within the year you should die. There should be no rapiest, murders, child molesters walking around the world, breathing air, and living life when the people they have hurt are broken because of them. One chance at life thats all you get so if you choose to use your chance hurting other people and ruining other peoples lives than honestly whats the point in your life?

Im sure people will think its wrong to kill people, honestly an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind. I get that but seriously what use are people like that in the world? What good are they? What use do they have? They dont contribute to the function of the world. I honestly think if you hold no function in the world you have no reason to be here. If in some way you cant make the world a better place at some point in your life then you hold no value. Those people hold no value in our world and should be done with. So when Bush was govenor of Texas and was killing off the people on death row I was all for that. Id hope that if people werent getting 25 years for it to be figured out they fingered the wrong guy then maybe the system will get better and the wrong guy wouldnt be put in jail in the first place. With the technology we have today there is no reason people should be in there 25 years for something they didnt do...they shouldnt even be put in there in the first place and I think without all the years to be able to say "oh sorry we got it wrong, heres a million dollars hope that helps," then theres no reason for the system to make those kinds of error with a human life on the line like that.

Anyways thats where my mind is at right now. Not for any real reason actually. Alright then I think its bedtime for me. Its been a long day.

Wordless Wednesday