Day 30-One Last Moment

Day 30-One Last Moment

OMG I cant believe that I made it! I wasnt to sure close to the end there I was bored with blogging I cant believe people actually read this everyday or missed days and caught up really you guys are crazy! But I love everyone of you for sticking with this blog seriously I dont know that I would haha. =)

So one last moment...like I said before I hate these damn moments and Id be lying if I told you Id been thinking about this all day to find a good moment to share but Ive litterally been laying in bed all day trying to get over this weird cold thing that I have going on. But I think Ive picked a good moment.

The moment I pick is the moment that I held Natalia for the first time. =)
I remember getting the call that she was coming while I was at work and I was so excited! I couldnt wait to get off to go meet this little girl. So I get off and I start driving to this hospital that I had no idea where it was and of course I got lost (I always get lost) but I finally found it after many uturns and cuss words haha it was like 7 already but I made it. So I get there and Elvi is holding her and I sit down (Im a nervous reck because Ive never really been around babies really my whole life so) she tells me I have to hold her...so I finally take her...and thats it Im completely in love! And Ive been head over heels for that little girl ever since. It kills me that I dont see her anymore shes walking and talking already and I havent been there to see any of it and that tears me up. She will be 2 on Halloween and I wont be there to take her birthday pictures which also kills me. I cant wait to get back to Vegas to see that little girl again. I miss her everyday. But thats my moment for today...my last moment woo hoo.

Day 29-What Are Your Aspirations

Day 29-What Are Your Aspirations

Aspirations: A hope or ambition of achieving something

One of my aspirations are to be happy. Truely happy with every part of my life. I want to be in a place where I can say every part of my life makes me happy to think about.
Another would be to travel the world. I really would liketo live in another country for at least a year of my life, most likely Germany more then any of the others. But Id like to see them all someday.
Also Id like to learn how play the piano too. =)
Id also like to own a bookstore one day just a small one.

Okay thats all I got for now.

Day 28-Something That You Miss

Day 28-Something That You Miss

I miss Vegas...not so much Vegas but the people in Vegas. I miss my family and friends. I miss not being able to call them and just say hey lets hang out or whatever. I miss that. I miss the closeness to them that I had there. Thats what I miss.

Day 27-Your Favorite Place

Day 27-Your Favorite Place

(you like the snow in vegas picture=)

I really dont have a favorite place anymore. It used to be my jeep. I loved driving around alone or with anyone else but I loved being in there with my radio up! It was so relaxing and I loved it! But I dont have it anymore and I miss it sooooooo much.

I havent been in CO long enough to have a favorite place here yet. =/ but hopefully soon Ill have my own jeep again and thatll be my favorite place again. Who knows. Dang I need a favorite place again!

Day 26-Your Fears

Day 26-Your Fears

Alright so today I feel like crap! I have been getting sick for about a week and today its caught up to me. It sucks so bad! But Im loyal and Im sticking to this challenge so here it is.

My biggest fear ever is being lonely. Not like alone in the house or anything like that but to feel truely lonely. Being in a situation where you cant talk to someone, anyone about what is going on. Ive had this feeling before and its terrifying its like being trapped in thought with no way out.
Thats about the only true fear I have.

I just want to say that after this challenge Ive actually learned some stuff about myself...one being I really am a simple person. I read the Day and just type the things that come to mind but usually they are so short because I have no other feelings or thoughts on the topic. Of course Ive always known I was simple but this shines a whole new light on just how simple. =)

Day 25-A First

Day 25-A First

So I a little late on this one and its going to be quick because Im still a little buzzed and Im damn tired. =)

Alright so a first for me actually happened today...well really yesterday we were driving home from the Stanley Hotel (another first) but Luwana say these guys in the park and so we turned around to check it out. There was just a herd of Elk hanging out on the golf course. At first only the females and babies were close and there were four bucks surrounding them but then the oldest one started calling them and then came up close. And they were super close as you can see from the one picture less then 12 steps and I could have touched him that was no zoom on the camera. It was pretty amazng I loved it! Next weekend theres this Elk Fest thing where you can get up close to the Elk and here their mating calls and what not its this huge thing people from all over come to see it. Well I saw it today and it was freaken awesome. =)

So thats my first because come on where in Vegas would you ever see Elk on a golf course?

Day 24-Something That Makes You Cry

Day 24-Something That Makes You Cry

Whats with all these depressing topics? Do people even care what makes me cry? I am a girl, so different things make me cry for different reasons. And its usually not crying, not much makes me actually break down and cry. Its more tearing up. To make me actually cry takes a lot if Im crying it usually means Im pissed off. I cant tell you the last time I cried about being sad or anything its always mad. But I tear up over the small things, cards can make me tear up, movies, gestures, stuff like that.

Day 23-Something That Makes You Feel Better

Day 23-Something That Makes You Feel Better

There are a lot of things that cheer me up after Im down so Ill just name a few.

1.my dogs! I love them both to pieces and I know they love me and that makes me extremely happy to know I have those two in my lifes that make everything right. =)

2.music no matter what is going on I can always just stop put on my ipod and find some kind of music that makes me smile. Depending on the situation but usually my go to music is either Sinatra or some kind of country music. Those two always put me in a better mood no matter what.

3.text from friends to cheer me up. I love my text messages anyways but when Im down those really help pull me through. Or calls from my Elvi she always knows how to cheer me up.

These are the simplest things a person could ever have in their lives and they are the best things I count on to cheer me up.

Day 22-Something That Upsets You

Day 22-Something That Upsets You

This is hard for me because I really try not to let things upset me and if it does upset me its usually something so stupid and minor that in the grand scheme of things doesnt matter. Those are the things that upset me.
When I ask someone to do something and it doesnt get done...that really upsets me.
So like I said its little stupid things because as most people that had this happen Im sure they would get mad but I dont I get upset like to the point of tears regarding somethings and how many times I have to ask. And thats because its usually a matter of I cant do it myself so thats why Im asking, its not that I just dont want to do it myself, because if that were the case Id ask once or twice and if you dont do it Ill just do it myself. But Im asking you because I cant do it. So thats why it upsets me.
Well thats all Im going to say because just thinking about this upsets me because it makes me think of the times its happened.

Okay have a good night guys. =)

Day 21-Another Moment

Day 21-Another Moment



These "moment" days are going to kill me, I dont know what to write about when its this general as a moment. Do you know how many moments a girl of almost 25 has had? So umm yea I should have been thinking about this all day but I didnt check it before....crap lol.

How about the moment Ted asked me to marry him...it was Christmas 09, I went to take a shower and he wrapped up the ring box and put it into a bigger box, then he put it under the covers of the bed. He then went to take his shower after I got out. I found the box but didnt open it until after he got back because I wanted him there when I opened my Christmas present. So when he got out I opened it and pulled out the most beautiful ring EVER! I love this ring its amazing. Then he asked if Id marry him. I said Yes of course. It was a good moment.

I knew he was going to ask I wasnt sure when or how but Im so freaken glad that he choose to do it alone with just me I rather it that way instead of making it a huge deal for everyone to wittness thats a moment between him and I that Im glad was kept that way.

So we were able to tell everyone on our terms which was of course that same day. I texted my aunt right away to let her know and called his mom who was in Colorado already to let her know but I told them not to tell anyone I wanted to tell everyone else at dinner. So I picked up my aunts and parents. Ted got Terry. I took my ring off and had Debbie hold it until we got to Amys I put it on and when we walked in and threw up my hand and yelled "WERE GETTING MARRIED".

So thats my moment for the day. =)

Day 20-This Month

Day 20-This Month



This month has been a great month! I finished school as of today woo hoo! I still have a few things to take care of still but basically its done. I have my exit interview set for next week and then Ill be done until graduaton in November! I got a job this month working with my extern site. YAY me! Tomorrow is my first paying day so thatll be a good day. Everything seems to be falling into place this month as far as career goes which is awesome. Once thats in place everything else will work out.
One bad thing this month is my super awesome aunts birthday is this month and I wont be in Vegas to celebrate with her. This is the first one Im missing and it blows big time. Birthday dinners are always so much fun and Ill miss that a lot. But she understands and supports me with my move which makes it better. =)
Theres still a few days left in this month so well see what else happens.

Day 19-Something You Regret

Day 19-Something You Regret

So the something I regret would be the many MANY chances I had but never told someone (they know who they are) how I felt. Weve since talked about it but I regret not telling them when I had the chance oh so many years ago. I waited for him to tell me but he was waiting for me so thats life right. But now we are living our lives differently and still really good friends and thats what matters =) He will always be my "one that got away".

Im sure a lot of people have this regret and I think thats okay to have. A what if regret is better then a WTF did I do regret...to me anyways. (Not that I think if I told him back then that he would have been a wtf did I do regret) this is starting to sound bad all the way around isnt it? Anyways Im glad weve talked about it now and everything is known between us and Im glad weve turned out to be really good friends.

Alright then thats my regret and its not really even a regret to be honest its a wish I would have known type of thing. But there it is all the same. =)

My Lobotomy-Howard Dully

Alright so I havent blogged about my books lately. Ive been slacking Im not going to lie I havent read that much lately but Im sure that will start to pick up again fairly soon. But the book Ive been reading is My Lobotomy by Howard Dully. This book is crazy just the idea of it is crazy and the fact that its true is mind blowing. I cant believe people were so willing to give their children and family members lobotomies just to save themselves the trouble of dealing with them, but yet 9 times out of 10 it caused them more problems but I guess after they messed up their brain with one they were able to just put them away and not deal with them anymore. It just cost them money instead of time.

But anyways this book is about a NORMAL kid whos stepmother basically hates him and talks to about 10 doctors to find out what can be done about him and in the end she finds this doctor who tells her, the only way to fix him is to give him a lobotomy. After only visiting with him 4 times and her 6 times and his father twice. How she talked her husband...his FATHER into letting her do it is beyond me really. But thats as far as Ive gotten is hes in the hospital getting ready to have it done.

After typing the name in google I found out you can read the whole book online how about that.

Ill let you know how the rest of it goes when I make it to the end.

Day 18-Your Birthday

Day 18-Your Birthday




My birthday is October 28

I usually have dinner with my family that day but this year will be different since they wont be here until November. This will be the first birthday away from them. I dont know what I will do. It sucks because its a big one the big 25! But I doubt Ill be doing anything fun. Maybe dinner with Ted but who knows. Maybe Ill work out a girls night with the girls or something.

Day 17-Your Favorite Moment

Day 17-Your Favorite Moment

Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment

is the only one you know you have for sure.

-Oprah Winfrey

Alright this is tough so Im going to go with one moment that is really 2 moments connected.

So the first half would be the moment I decided to go back to school and actually started putting it into action. For me going back to school was a huge deal because in 2004 I didnt get my diploma because of the proficiency test that didnt pass in time. I had over the amount of credits needed to graduate but that test is what stopped me. I was so pissed for so long about that and then I just didnt care about it so it took me 5 years to finally woman up and do what I needed to do. So the summer of 2009 I took a prep class and then took my test and PASSED =) woop woop.

So the second part of this memory was being able to tell my boss I was quitting to go back to school was awesome! I worked that dead end job for 5 years I wasnt going anywhere with that place my boss was a slave driver for no pay. I was misrable. I hated getting up in the morning, I hated being there all day, I just hated everything that had to do with that place. (besides a few of the people that worked there....I loved them and still do and love talking to them still). But other then them that place sucked. So that was the next favorite moment.

Day 16-Your First Kiss

Day 16-Your First Kiss

Well I had a kiss with a boy in like the 1st grade. So really thats my first kiss but the kiss that actually was "my first kiss" was when I was in 7th grade I think haha I dont remember his name either. I know it happened on my door step after school it didnt mean anything really it wasnt special whats so ever. I think after it happened I went inside and never talked to the boy again thats how good that was.

Im thinking the more these days are going the shorter these posts get. I wonder why that it is...oh well Im going to go now. Have a good night.

Day 15-Your Dreams

Day 15-Your Dreams

So Ive been going back and forth about the future so there are a lot of dreams that I have for myself.


I know for sure I dream of being married in this dress...in this color


I will visit this place a lot! And at least once on opening day.


I will visit Italy...every inch of it before I die.


As morbid as some may think it is, I will visit every concentration camp still standing. Im such a huge history dork so this is important to me to see. Its important for everyone to see actually.


So those are my dreams at this moment that I can think of anyways I know there are MANY MANY more but traveling is all Ive been thinking about lately thats why most of them are about traveling.
Well have a good night.

Day 14-What You Wore Today

Day 14-What You Wore Today




Im sure you are thinking I save these pictures upside down on purpose and I should totally just say that I do to be different but I really do try to save them the correct way its just not working for some reason so whatever. This is what I wore today...more scrubs. My PIMA scrubs actually and I hated them when I had to wear them all the time and now I hate them because they dont have pockets like my other ones but oh well. This is what I wear for now. Ill be buying more scrubs most likely this week. =) Its sad that I didnt look at this before I would have worn some crazy socks like the last time but today was just boring white.

Id also like to say that I dont like how many days of what you wore today only because Im wearing the same thing all the time. But thats just me lol.

Day 13-This Week

Day 13-This Week



So this week just started but Ill say THIS IS MY LAST WEEK!!!! WOOHOO Im so excited that Ive finally made it! 40 hours left can you believe that? I still cant. I need to start working on my resume and I need to figure out work and also now is the tme to put real thought into going back to school and which steps to take. Tech? a year and a half more. 12,000 more. Vet? 6ish years more. 100,000 more. Geez thats a lot to think about. I guess I need to figure that out pronto.
Other then that this week will be like every other week. Work. Home. Read. Bed...and again. I know on Friday were going to watch Easy A which looks freaken hilarious really. Saturday we might be going to Brush for a bbq with Teds friends and theres also a party for one of the doctors at work and a PIG SPAY! Thats going to be damn awesome really. I want to see that.
So thatll be my week. =)

Day 12-Whats In Your Bag?

Day 12-Whats In Your Bag?

Alright so whats in my bag? Nothing to good really just whatever I need everyday. Plus my bag is super small compared to what it usually is. I usually carry a small "carry on" size bag lol one that I can put EVERYTHING ANYTHING in but I changed it when I went to Vegas so here it is.


The purse. =) and a fraction of the pins I own.


My wallet that hardly closes anymore lol and my work name tag.



Gum (duh) and my two chapsticks usually there are more of those.




Pens and hair clip





Compact...I think Ive used once actually, mirror compact, and my class cleaner wipe thingy.

My keys. My SoCal keychain. My Jesus keychain. My hard drive thing for school. My Paris keychain from the REAL Paris. =)

I warned you it would be boring lol nothing special or fun or anything. But here it is just the same. =)

Day 11-Your Siblings

Day 11-Your Siblings

My sibling is my sister she is freakin amazing! Nothing else needs to be said besides that but Im going to post my speech to her for her wedding because I think it fits the best to describe our relationship.

Two peas in a pod. Best friends. As close as close can be. Of all the terms that can describe our realationship I like sisters the best. You are the best sister a girl could ask for. As far back as I can remember we've done everything together. When we had news good or bad we always called each other first or if we just neded to sit on the phone watching and complaining about Payton and Brook for an hour every week, we could always count on each other.

I love you for always taking care of me and supporting me through everything Ive ever faced. You truly are the definition of big sister. I was so proud to stand next to you as you said I Do. You've taken a huge step towards your future and in turn you've given me a brother. Who better take as good as care of you as I have. Which is a high standard to life up to but I think hes up for the job. Watching you grow into the honorable, beautiful, classy woman you are today has been a privilege. But watching you walk down the aisle has been the best memeory I have of you yet. You have been a great sister and I have no doubt that you'll be a wonderful wife as well.

I love my sister I wish we talked as much as we did when I was in Vegas but it just isnt working out that way lately but thats alright. Shes still the best.

I always wanted to talk about Terry (hints the picture with the asian kid in the middle) he is my cousin but since I lived with his mom and him from 8th grade up until I met Ted he is like my brother. I love this kid he is so awesome and always there for me no matter what. He can always make me laugh and he gives me brotherly advise which is always nice. =) I love this kid he is amazing and great and hes supported me through a crap load of stuff in my life so thats why hes like a sibling to me and why he is on this list. =) (no one said siblings had to be related right?)

what random pictures do you take?

So Im sitting here...tired but not really wanting to sleep so I figure since I havent blogged about anything other then my 30 day topics. But I dont really have anything to actually blog about so Im just going to post random picture that I have from my phone and camera that never made it onto my facebook.
Enjoy my dorkiness.



So we had a Girls Night (Laurie, Bren, and Elisibeth) and we had a fabulous time! I loved it and am totally bummed I didnt get to go to the last one. But Laurie is super cute and made Ted a take home swan of my left overs. haha it was awesome!


Paloma sent this picture to me...and I would really LOVE to go there...in this time period. Ill go there soon its one of my goals. But to go back here would be freakin amazing.




This just makes me laugh.




Oh the things you get out of the quarter machine. I texted this picture to my 18 year old male cousin and his response "its not fair that you grew a mustash before I did!!!!!" lol I couldnt stop laughing I almost peed myself when I put this thing on. I really bought it for Ted to put on but when we got to the car I realized he had a real one on lol. Such a retard.


HAHA gotta love the new exercise equipement and the people that are retarded enough to do this in the store and take pictures of it.

This is what happens when you have people from Vegas move to where it snows we take pictures of our awesome snow prints we can actually pick up =) can you say DORKS